As you may or may not have noticed it has been a while since this page was updated. With that in mind I thought I would take over with the news updates in order to give you a more personal view of how my journey is panning out. Since the last post is from the Lucerne World Cup I thought I should carry on from that point in my journey.
As mentioned above the last post is about the Lucerne World Cup which is the last of the World Cup series and the last real opportunity to test yourself against your opposition before the World Championships. At this World Cup I finished 10th which is a 4th place finish in the B final. This result hit me hard and it is easy to blame other people for a poor performance, but I knew how hard each member of my crew has trained and how they give their all every time their blade enters the water, right up until the boat crosses the finish line. So to find myself in a B final after such a good season is hard to over-come. It is very easy to slip into a mind set of "what's the point?", but deep down you know there has to be a reason for your performance that led to this situation and so you go away, you sit and you think by yourself and you talk to you crew members, until you feel you have re-assured yourself that you did everything you could but that was not enough, and to quit before you've had another chance to prove yourself would be worse than not returning to the start line the following morning for round two!
This all may sound quite dramatic but if you're passionate about the things you do then it is hard not to let a bad performance affect you. I have found that learning from experiences like these will help alter future performances which I will touch upon further down the line in my experience of the European Championships.
As a crew we found ourselves on the start line of the B final, confidence damaged from the previous days of tough racing. I had the mindset that we had to prove our speed and in doing so, manufacture some kind of reassurance that we were a fast crew and that we just haven't been on top form the past few days. Needless to say we tried but in my opinion failed. The following day back home in the UK I fell ill with hot and cold sweats amongst other horrible symptoms I best not go into! On reporting to the Team Doctor I was told I had/was combating both sun stroke and exhaustion both as a result of the previous few days racing.
Looking back on this World Cup several months later, it is clear that as an individual I had let one poor performance affect several real possibilities to prove myself. I had let that one poor performance damage my confidence so much that it affected my mindset and ultimately the outcome of the event. This is a very important lesson that I am now happy to have learnt from and remind my self of often.
In : Rowing